To say i am new at this would be a lie, to say i am an old hand would also be a lie.
I have done this before, but now i try again with a goal. I want to write about parenting with a mental illness, from the perspective of someone who is living with agoraphobia and severe bi polar disorder with a mild personality disorder on top.
sooo..... much of this will be written haphazardly and much of it may end up being links or rants, however, i will do my best to post as often and cleanly as possible.
I am a wife and mother to 7 children. the difficult thing is i only have two with me. i can barely handle that.
my husband i cant say is a lot of help but when he does help it usually goes above and beyond.
I cant sleep nights, it seems to elude me totally but as the sun comes up i get very tired and am unable to remain awake.
so to start i guess....
Quinncy is my eldest, i think 17/18 this year
Tapanga is next about 16/17 this year
Alexander 14 this year
Vanyel who will be 10
Draevyn who passed at birth
Elibryis who is 4
Allyssandra who is 18m
As you can see i cant really even remember birthdays or ages anymore. my mind seems to fade in and out often. i rarely remember birthdays ages or even names, i tend to get things very confused. now my two eldest were placed for adoption Alex lives with his dad and i don't see him. i feel that's for the best, Vanyel lives with his dad and i try to see him every other weekend. Eli and Allyssa live here at home with myself Eric and Draevyns urn.
for now being 6 am i am going to try and get some rest. today is Sunday after all and Eli only has one more day before returning to school.
Speaking for me is easier then typing and so while i will type to speak of myself i may post many a video
thanx for listening to this intro into my life.
~A~
